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#1.
#19
marilyn/xiaowen/lynNIE
xw_marilynn@hotmail.com [friendster/msn]
27o488
dance, cheerleading, SHOPPAHOLIC!
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#3.
#4.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
our calender, with love.
i simply cant smile. you take away all my smiles that i feel so weak, so lost that i just couldnt find my way out. you wouldnt understand how much it feels for the entire week. yes, ive been thinking a lot for the entire week ever since then. i hate to think of all the shit you gave me. you made me cry, deep in my heart. i've got no one to turn to, but you. 'cause you are the only person i can find my way out but you, just shut off everytime i feel like doing so. you made me feel, really neglected, just like someone you can simply dump aside. have you ever thought of how it feels? you NEVER understand. your insensitiveness never fails to put me in pain. you just wouldnt listen. no matter how terrible you treat me, no matter how much of a cold shoulder you show, i never had the second thoughts of backing out. i'm always standing right there, waiting for you to step out. i hate myself to be like this. im always fearing, that you took that seriously. i fear your anger. i know you may be fuming mad at me, and all along i've been hesistating, hesistating if i should bring that matter up again. i dont know why i cant bring myself to do that. i feel that, it takes lots of courage to vent it all at you. i'm scared that you'll get mad at me even more. you definitely wont realise how much pain you have given to this girl. the things you did may mean nothing to you at all, but it means SO MUCH to me. i REALLY cant understand myself too. i couldnt even expect im able to tolerate all the nonsense you gave me and i could still continue, being nice enough to stnad alone waiting all along. we need to talk, really. you made this girl, real ugly.
{/12:19 PM} Y
